I do not have a patient mind. It causes me to be irrational at times and plunges me into states of fear and confusion. At the apex of my drama when all reason is mindless my survival mind overtakes all and suggests awareness. For me the fearful mind is the most controlling in that it creates irrational states of confusion which can be overwhelming even to survival. The fearful mind is seductive to the point of habit forming. It feels unwell but is alluring. Awakening is being aware of internal and external stimuli telling you the stove is hot and it will burn, but go ahead if your fear of being guided is greater than your fear of survival.